SOMETIMES I REALLY FAVOR THOSE NIGHTS WHEN IM COMPLETELY ALONE. I FEEL SOME WHAT FREE, AND ENABLED TO DO WHAT EVER IT IS I FEEL LIKE DOING. I LOVE JUST FINDING A GOOD OLD MOVIE AND POPPING A BAG OF POPCORN AND JUST HANGIN OUT BY MYSELF ON OCCASIONS. A FEW YEARS BACK THESE NIGHTS WOULD HAVE CONSISTED OF SMOKING LARGE AMOUNTS OF CIGARETTES AND DRINKING WHATEVER ALCOHOL THERE WAS AROUND TO DRINK. MAYBE EVEN A BLACK AND MILD OR TWO AND SOME FORTYS, WHICH WOULD LEAD TO ME SITTING IN MY GARAGE CHAIN SMOKING AND PAINTING WEIRD PICTURES ON CHEAP CANVASES. BUT THATS NOT ME ANY MORE. IM NOT THAT PERSON WHO CAN JUST WALK AROUND AIMLESSLY WITH NO SHOES ON DRUNK AND STONED AT 12:30 PM. OR THAT PERSON WHO CAN JUST GET LOST IN LOS ANGELES WITH ONLY 60 DOLLARS AND NO RIDE HOME AND THEN MEET A BUM AT AM PM AND GET DRUNK WITH HIM AND LISTEN TO HIM TALK ABOUT HOW HIS CHICK IS A BITCH, THATS NOT ME ANYMORE. AND SOMETIMES IT HURTS INSIDE. I FEEL LIKE AT HEART I TRULY AM A VAGABOND. IF I WASN'T MARRIED I WOULD TOTALLY SMOKE CIGARETTES STILL AND DRINK HEAVILY.